Reminisce

Well, I guess I didn't get the chance to do my writing everyday for the month of September. I knew doing a task like that was going to be difficult very early on in my writing journey last month. Living the busy life style that I do with working full time then seeing my boyfriend on the weekends, I knew it was going to be hard to find the time to write. I did what I could but after being busy for two days in a row and not being able to put out content, I decided that I am too busy to continue this journey. So unfortunately I was not able to continue writing every day.

But here I am, sitting on my couch October 3rd, trying to acknowledge that the year 2022 has flown past and every day it is getting closer to the end of the year. Leaves have been turning to a picturesque colour of yellow and orange, on the brink of falling for the season. It baffles me this year has flown past. So many crazy things have happened this year and it is hard to keep track of it all.

I remember after going through the worst year of my life in 2021, I remember on New Years Eve, I was telling myself that 2022 will be my year. And that all of my problems I will leave behind. And I did exactly that this year. This year has been a hurricane of many unexpected feelings and transitions. From graduating university, getting a major promotion at work, starting a podcast, to watching my partner live likely the worst month of his life since I met him, I have changed a lot since the beginning of this year. Change sounds like a negative word, let me use the word evolve. I have evolved into this new woman. Again. Just when I thought I did all of my evolving in 2021.

As weird as this may sound, I have always believed I live a "main character" type of life. For those who have no clue what I am talking about, I mean that I live the kind of life where there is always something crazy going on. Both positive and negatively. Things happen to me that make it seem like I am some main character in a movie or some sort of television show. Unbelievable stuff happens more often to me than you think. I just choose not to plaster all of it here over the internet.

But this past year has taught me a lot. Even more growth has come into my life. Every single day that passes, I feel like everything is going past me in a whirl. A spiralling whirl that is too fast to even comprehend. I can't tell anyone yet, but I have been working on a secret project these past couple months. Ever since May of 2022. This year I am making my childhood dreams come true. Not those silly childhood dreams like: I want to be rich and famous, or non realistic things like that. But my creative fire that I have had for all of my life is driving me to make an impact on this world. And I am working to make everything seen by the world. One day, everyone can see all of the strength and effort that I want to put out into this world. I am making little Sarah proud this year. If little Sarah was here in front of me right now and if I told her everything I have been accomplishing this year, she would be in sheer disbelief. She would not believe me that I am a manager at my job, that I have a Bachelor of Arts Degree, and that I am chasing my lifetime dream that I have had for as long as I can remember. All at the young age of 21 years old.

21 years old. See, this is where I think this main character energy comes into place in my life. All these great things in my life are happening rapidly and they're changing me as the days pass. I am incredibly blessed to live the life I have at this age. Yeah I know I have had a lot of bumps in my journey of life but they never have stopped me in anything that I do. I continuously try to be the best person I can be while also doing my best to make a long lasting impact on this world. And this year has been a catalyst to all that I want to do in life. Not being in school certainly helps. I don't have to worry about exams or assignments that are always calling my name. I am free from the academic world. And that is where this new life begins. This new life of chasing my dreams and doing what makes me happy. Not what makes my parents happy or what makes my friends or distant family happy. I am doing what I want. I am making myself a priority.

I have always believed that when chasing your dreams, start now. Don't wait until you have money or until you get the approval of someone else. If it is something you want to do, just do it. Do not let anyone stop you from achieving your dreams.

Next year might be pretty repetitive since I don't have a plan besides working full time. But who knows, maybe next year will somehow be even better than this year. Somehow, next year might be the best year of my life. I have the joy of having the ability to manifest good things into my life and there are many things in my life that are going to be predetermined. But I am using my own force to create amazing things for myself.

The funny thing about evolving yourself is that once you think you're done, you see shortly after you're not done. You're never done. There is always going to be something that will spark another change.

2023 will involve many new changes and many new projects or eventful things that will take place. And the joy of that is that I get to see it all and feel the accomplishment every step of the way.