Destined For Greatness

In the last couple weeks, I have felt such an energy shift that has been oozing from every pore in my body. A couple months ago, everyday I would wake up in my mundane life, living paycheck to paycheck, and just trying to get by. To say it simply, I was just existing. When things went sideways and my life took a whole 360, I truly did feel lost for a little while. When you have your whole life planned out then in the matter of seconds things get thrown everywhere. You come to the realization that you are now at the bottom of the mountain again, staring up at the peak of fresh starts, that really makes you reevaluate every. single. thing.

Since now living the single life, I have never put myself first so much until this point and my god, does it feel good. I can feel this has been giving me a perspective shift and it is making me very excited for the future to come. I never realize how much I was being held back until now. Was I being held back from a person? Or was I being held back by myself and limiting myself on what makes me happy. Both are very possible answers that I don't know the truth for. But tapping into this new energy is elevating me. I can see it in how I hold myself and I can feel it deep in my soul.

It truly is hard to explain what this energy shift feels like. I can use my words to try and explain it to you, but it truly is best explained through feeling what I feel.

One thing that I have been promising myself this summer is to do whatever makes me happy. Let me take a moment to share with you, all the tickets I have bought and places I will travel. I seriously had to make a list because it was becoming hard to keep track of! So I've already gone to Manitoba for a couple days to visit family, I'm going camping this weekend, going out to a dance party, going on a week long vacation in the mountains, and I'm going to three raves in a month. I'll be a busy bee this summer but I truly wouldn't want it any other way. I am investing in myself and going to places that will make me memories and make me happy. I'm not letting anyone dictate my summer and the best part is I get to go to all these places and spend time with the people that mean the most to me. Forgot to mention that I am in the final stages of my second book being published! So I'm anticipating that by late summer, I'll be able to get the ball rolling to have my next book out! Not to mention that I'm looking in moving right now too, but I won't spoil that surprise too early. This summer is going to be a HUGE shift for me. From my book, to travel, to finding myself and my peace, it is going to be a summer to remember. And I'm holding myself high above the water and really showing off my strength.

With the anticipation of summer brewing in my gut, I can just feel it in my bones that I am destined for greatness. That everything that has happened to me so far is meant to happen. That the future is looking insanely bright for me and the best truly is yet to come. I only have the best people I love and care about in my life and I don't have anyone or anything that is sucking the life out of me.

May I also add that I feel like I am also embracing things that interest me. So for those who don't know, for years I have always had an interest in tarot. Before you call me a witch and bring out the pitchforks, let me explain my curiousity. I've considered myself to probably be more spiritual than anything. Yes there is something out there, but I have always strongly believed in the aspect of manifesting the life I desire and knowing there are guides out there helping me through life. A close family memeber of mine has tarot cards and I've had some readings with her before. There has always been that interest but I wasn't 'allowed' to buy and bring my own into the house. I say allowed in quotes cause yes I have freedom to do what I want but out of respect for another person, they did not want tarot cards anywhere near them. Which was fine and I respected that. But with refinding my footing again in life, I chose to invest in what I want and I purchased my first deck. And for those who don't own one, you likely will not be able to see where I'm coming from, but it truly feels like an expansion of me. I feel comfortable using them and to help guide me to what situation I'm in or what advice I need to hear. I'm still a beginner of course, but this small and simple purchase is one new thing that is helping me become me again.

This summer has something amazing brewing for me, I know it. Waking up everyday with a smile on my face and the eagerness and anticipation to see what the world has in store for me, is something I thought I had but now that I have it in such a strong feeling, I feel like a freight train of positivity and enlightenment. And there is absolutely nobody that can stop me with the trajectory that I am going.

In six months, my life has turned a complete 360. Absoutely nothing is the same since January. And it blows my mind to look back and to see who I was back then to now. From embracing myself and putting myself first, only investing my time in people and places that make me genuinely happy, looking to move with an an eager heart full of excitement, going blonde and cutting my hair short, to also leaving a relationship I thought was for me. The girl that was slumped around in January is different to the girl who crumbled before you at the beginning of April, to a whole new woman who stands tall before you now.

This is only the beginning of this so called glow-up. You think I'm confident and standing stronger now? Oh honey, just you wait another six months until you see me by the fall. I'll be stronger than I am now and on a whole new level.

I know I'm destined for greatness. I am meant to live a life full of love, fulfillness and peace. Good things will happen for me, if even things needed to fall apart before they could fall together. Everything is meant to happen when it does, and I truly did not want to accept that in April. In April, or even January, I thought the world was out to get me. I thought the universe was like, "you're going through a hard time? Hm, let me kick you while you're down". But getting through that hurt and that pain made me see that life may go sideways or things may fall apart, but the hurt is what drives growth. Because when you hit that rock bottom, the only way to go is up. And for these past couple months, I have never felt so much like me in my life, and it is only going to get better. I feel myself back climbing that peak of fresh starts and I'm not stopping till I get to the top. And luckily for everyone in my life, you all just have the joy of watching me reach these new heights and achieving something most only dream of.

-S. Cowan